I'm not great with new beginnings. I get scared of the unknown. Of not having the safety and comfort of routine. Yet here I am, about to embark on this incredible journey doing what I never thought would be possible. Becoming a full time artist. See, I'm a lawyer by trade. Not exactly your typical artist career. But that's a big part of how my brain works and what my personality gravitates toward. There's the logical and analytical structured side to me. And then there's the part of me that I always felt a deeper connection to but was always too afraid to truly acknowledge. And that's the spontaneous, creative side that wants to experience new things, connect with others, and dive headfirst into the unknown.
I got married on January 22, 2017, to my husband, Mordi. This incredible man has helped me discover deeper parts of that creative side of my personality that he saw yearning to come out. If it wasn't for him I'd still be doing paint nights once a month to release whatever creativity I felt inside of me that I didn't know what to do with. Over the past few years, he has helped me believe in that side of myself and that is what led me to today. To my last day of work at my legal job. Tomorrow starts my new beginning.
And that brings us back full circle. Here I am scared of this new start. The difference, however, between the me 4 years ago and the person who sits here today, at her desk, writing a blog (NEVER thought that would happen either!) is that I can now redirect my thoughts and my brain. I can now allow myself to feel the excitement along with the nerves. I can allow myself to feel proud and accomplished for getting to this point. For staying up night after night, after coming home from a long day at work, after putting my baby to bed, so that I can start this business and this new life that I so desired. So now here I am, feeling scared...? Sure. Any big change is scary. But what I feel most is blessed. And excited. And in the most beautiful disbelief that I get this chance. The chance to bring color and art into other peoples homes. To have the potential to inspire, and bring calm, joy, and beauty to another's day.
I never thought I'd be here. And I for sure NEVER thought I'd EVER write a blog! I'm a very private person. But my goal now is to inspire. To share. To create. And in order to do that fully, I need to relate, to open communication, to be real and personal and to step out from behind the comfort of my desk and live. So here I am :) I hope you continue on this journey with me. I hope you share, learn, teach, grow and of course, I hope you become inspired and inspire others.
Thank you for this opportunity and for being on this journey with me.